I'm so tired of people.
Almost all of them.
Tired of false friends who cut me out of their lives because of a choice I made - a choice they couldn't even be bothered to ask me about.
Tired of coworkers who can't show me the same respect they show to others, presumably because I'm not a good enough Christian by their standards. (I say this because I felt perfectly welcome here...until I voiced my support for gay marriage, started living with a man to whom I'm not married, and referenced my sister and her girlfriend in casual conversation.)
Tired of being lied to by people I thought I could trust.
I wish I could work from home, safely insulated from all this bullshit. But since I can't, I must learn to be strong, to fill my heart with enough love to combat all this hate.
Ya...kind of feeling the same in regards to wanting to work from home. Blah. Hang in there and don't be afraid to have your own opinions and make choices that are best for you. People can be overly critical. Yes, I may not agree with some of the same things you do...but I'm not going to allow that to ruin a relationship and I will try not act differently towards you because of an opinion/belief. Love you Jacki and stay strong!
ReplyDeleteThank you, girl, this means so much to me. Love you too!
ReplyDeleteI am happy that you are obviously the bigger, more worldly, person, that has the heart to stand on your own thoughts and opinions. I feel bad that there are so many people that feel the need to judge without truly knowing and shut out people they consider 'others'; Many times they make assumptions without facts and even shun those that they do not know. Perhaps what some believe as being "a better Christian" is in fact nothing at all like Christ would have done or said; I do not remember that as a teaching.
ReplyDeleteI will say that the people that reserve their respect for only a chosen few, using questionable criteria at that, should still be shown courtesy (not necessarily respect) and kindness in return, for they know not what they do. Their behavior is learned, and perhaps it is to late now to be un-learned. Do not bow your head, or feel any shame in your own way/beliefs. Stand confidently, turn their negative into an energy within you to show that what they say or do has little if any affect. (Remember, not aloof or smug, but confident and happy about it.) On the other hand, if they come across directly as rude or show their prejudice; Do, firmly but politely call them on it, and then leave it at that. [To communicate and get it off your chest and then leave it and continue as if nothing has phased you]
There is a Soldier that I believe is a really good hearted person, that has, as a younger person, bent to the wishes of his peers (peer pressure) and now that he is away from that pressure is trying to better himself. Yet, what remains part of this learned behavior is a lot of unnecessary profanity (used like it was punctuation) and terrible racial stereotypes. I have called him on it several times, being very nice to him about it, and he makes excuses and almost apologizes, but I believe he just was never taught how. I have asked some of his friends and co-workers, to also call him on his behavior and language (politely correcting him) and I hope that in time he will learn, and change his habits for the better.
Sorry about the length of this, but I have heard so little from you for quite some time. Know that I keep tabs on your FB and this Blog on occasion to see how you are doing.
I am glad you have found someone to share your life with, I hope the relationship is what you need right now.
Feel free to write me anytime, when you have the time.
- B